when you were young
your favorite line
was “Dad, you don’t know”
what you don’t know
there was a night
not long ago
I sat on the edge
of my bed
of the universe
one in the chamber
cursed glass of whiskey
liquid false courage
in the other hand
disgusted with yesterday
bored with today
uninterested in tomorrow
desperately seeking
a reason
to carry on
I’d lost my joy
the will to seek it
where once was strength
a cavernous
anguished
aching gash
where was the zeal?
missing the real
existing
but not living
tears of pain roll
down my unshaven cheek
one, just one
fucking reason I seek
to not end it all
the safety off
just drunk enough
sick enough
to call Bullshit
on this timed-out
worn-out
overplayed phase
I call my life
then I think of you
my precious child
your first steps
sun in your hair
your infinite
infectious smile
golden and pure soul
my heart yearns
stomach turns
my mind scolds me
at the thought
of hurting you
if I was to shed
this mortal shell
in the throes
of my selfish pain
I would crush you
my dear child
I had forgotten
in a selfless moment
your love
ceaseless adoration
and your words
that I am
your favorite
person
in the world
I couldn’t pull it
the beckoning trigger
for I had vowed to myself
in a lighter hour
I would never
cause you
a life of pain
in the name
of ending mine
The Tao of Bill 
This might just be my fave so far.
Great job. Loved the ending.
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From you that means an awful lot
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Wow. Heartbreakingly beautiful. Thank you for sharing. 💕
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Thank you for reading.
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This was not an easy write, I know. You did it in a truly poetic voice that not many would ever be able to match. So well done, Billy.
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From the Wulf, I could not be more honored. Thank you. It was not an easy write. It’s a recollection of a very sleepless night
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One that you came out the other side of morning and were able to sit down an write about it…that makes it all the more powerful.
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I don’t always “get” poetry, I’ve admitted that before. But this one, Bill, is just sublime. Bravo, good sir. 👏👏👏
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Wow Billy, I’m in awe! This is breath-taking. xxx
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This is heart-wrenching, but so heartwarming Billy. This is awesome poetry my friend. The images created by your words are both scary and beautiful. Bravo!
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thank you my talented friend
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You’re very welcome Billy!
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