I’m tired
Really fucking tired
of being misunderstood
how do people not see
what I see
when I look in the mirror?
when for the first time
finally
I can look without shame
I don’t love what I see
But I can live with it
and that’s something
I’ve kicked crawled and scratched
just to be
acceptable
presentable
memorable
and of course…
respectable
and to be alive
after being so close to death
in both body and spirit
sick and weary
from trying to be strong
as it collapsed around me
bitter and angry
at the mess my life
my loveless
and unremarkable life
had become
I said to the world
here I am again
do your worst
I know who I am now!
now I’m not so sure
Is it possible that I am not
the man I think I am?
I walk tall so you won’t attack me
I talk clear so that you will hear me
I think of others to forget about me
I thank the universe for saving me
It’s not an act but it is
is it too much to ask
for a little fucking slack
and a chance for a redo
if I don’t show you
the first time
what I’m really made of
I try to be who you want me to be
while I figure out who I am
Personally I think you are a little to0 hard on yourself, or at least on your past that you appear to carry with you like a scarlet letter. And as far as anyone else is concerned, if they don’t like or appreciate who you are then fuck ’em. It’s their loss
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You know Steve, you’re a mind reader. I really do dwell on stuff from my past. Not as bad as it sometimes comes across in my writing but it’s there. Thanks Man
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It’s okay to be you just as you are. Trying to change yourself for another will bring you more unhappiness 🙂
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it’s not so much about change as it is who you are vs how people perceive you
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Absolutely 🙂
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Screw what people want you to be. If they don’t appreciate who you want you to be, they aren’t worth your time. I took me my first marriage to figure that out.
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My first marriage also
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Maybe we’ve been spending too much time with the wrong people.
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Maybe
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