Last night I came home exhausted. Sometimes dialysis leaves me a crampy, washed out mess. Yesterday was one of those days. My sofa was calling my name. But it was not to be. Mom needed help.
We have contractors coming Saturday morning to rip the roof off of our garage and they needed us to get all of the junk in the upstairs of the garage moved to the back. It’s a project I’ve been planning but I was putting it off until the fall because in August the attic of the garage is blistering hot. I wasn’t about to make mom do it alone so I sucked it up and headed up.
It was hot. Africa hot. After a few minutes I was dripping. Ten sweaty, swamp-ass minutes later I was down to two unmarked cardboard boxes. I went over to them, dragged them from the overhang and opened them. They contained Dad’s miniature truck collection.
Dad drove a truck for 35 years. Retail home oil delivery. Over the road Gasoline hauling. He could legally drive anything with wheels. He loved trucks. By extension I did also. By the time I was 12 I could name any truck by name, model and approximate year by the headlights alone (still can). It wasn’t enough that he spent 60-65 hours a week driving, he also had to have his den covered with replicas of 18 wheelers with Wal-Mart, Harley Davidson, etc. markings. Dump trucks, concrete mixers, you name it he had it. Until he passed and my mom put them in storage. I had forgotten about them.
Many years ago Dad gave me some model trucks as presents. I brought them to work with me but they never had a proper place so they sat in the corner of my office in their boxes. When he passed in 2013 I broke down and bought a large bookcase for my office. I dedicated 2 large shelves to mementos of him. The trucks, a collectible baseball that he bought for me, a portrait of him and a license plate from 1929 that I found in my Grandfather’s garage. It was on his first car.
When people came in my office they were naturally drawn to my homemade shrine. It afforded me the opportunity to talk about my dad. Of course, its primary purpose was to inspire me when I was down. He taught me to work hard. To act with integrity. To always do what I say and do it well. To be a man that takes pride in what he does.
They look like just trucks. But they represent so much more to me. Hard work, dedication and pride. He may have been only a truck driver but he was the only one in his family to pull himself out of abject poverty and make something out of himself. And he did it by learning a skill, dedicating his life to it and raising his family through his efforts.
I will spend the day Sunday finding a place to display them again. I miss him more than words can ever express, but there is never a moment when I see a truck, real or model, that I don’t think of him.
Do what I say and do it well and take pride in what you do.
I think I would ‘ve liked your old man.
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You would have
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Isn’t it weird how you can just stumble upon something and have such a emotionally visceral connection?
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It is weird but it happens a lot.
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IMy parents passed 4 years ago and I am stumbling upon stuff I didn’t know even existed as we start packing things up for the move. The impact is immediate and visceral
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In my house my dad is everywhere. He built most of the house and it’s impossible not to be reminded of him
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This is beautiful. He must have been an amazing man.
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Than you. He was
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I love the truck collection. I think you may have come across them just when the time was right. It’s heartbreaking about the loss of your dad but now there is time for the good memories. I hope those trucks do that for you. Remember him fondly and enjoy all that he taught you. Nice to read you again, Billy!
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Thank you, Kim is good to be back
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My husband feels the same way about the tractor collection that he got from his dad, who was a hard-working farmer. He has a model of the actual tractor that they owned on the farm, and I know how much it means to him:-)
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A lovely post Billy, and I bet those models are in pristine condition.
I have so little that belonged to my Dad, but I do have a box of things Mum had put together for me and inside are things I gave them over the years plus a few other personal pieces. Whenever I see machines rolling the hay in the fields, I think of my Mum watching The Doughnut Machine from our lounge window in the cottage. A post came into my reader today about home grown melons, and that reminded me of my Dad. An ache of loss but the memories brought warm fuzzy feelings.
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At least you have good memories of your dad
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I do Billy.
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Life is very strange sometimes. I have not been spending much time in WP lately and earlier today you popped into my head and I wondered how you were faring and made a mental note to drop by your site later and catch up on your writing … and then this post of yours popped up in my WP reader.
As others have said, what a wonderful and loving tribute to your father. He obviously was not “just” a truck driver. Whoever does what they love doing, is proud of what they do, and they do it well, is not “just” that thing. They transcend that thing and they show others how to love it as much as they do. He was not “just” a truck driver. He was a wonderful man who happened to drive a truck and whose love of trucks elevated that occupation in others’ minds.
And having a close relationship with one’s father is a rare and wonderful thing. It is great you and him had that time together.
Thank you for sharing this tribute. Having just lost my own father earlier this year, it meant even more to me.
I hope you’re doing well. I’ll try to hang around WP more often and keep up with my friends here.
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Greetings Biff. Thank you for dropping by my page . I appreciate your kind words. I’m guilty of not stopping by your page also. I’ve been meaning to
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We are all consumed by having real lives we must attend to. Writing, at this point in my life, has become a luxury that I can barely afford. The same with reading. I mean well, but then something always comes along and chews up the hours of my day, and the next thing I know it is bed time.
But I am going to try and get better about using my time more efficiently.
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That’s a nice tribute to your dad. So many things remind me of my dad, but I appreciate that.
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Thanks Dan
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what a beautiful tribute to your father…….thank you for sharing part of his story.
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Thank you. I miss him a lot
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I cannot imagine…..
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This is such a moving post. Thanks for sharing
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thank you
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You’re welcome 😉
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